Douglas henry (butch) Green Obituary

May 24, 2019

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I know it's been a long time but I have never forgotten you. I think of you every minute of every day, you are always in my thoughts. I still cry, I still want you to come back home or come and get me. I know you were watching over us at Courtney's baby shower, it hurt because I needed you their with me. Michael is engaged and he will be married soon and then he is going to start a family. All of this is a first for me without you and it hurts, I will always need you. Random thoughts of you keep”

March 10, 2019

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I know it's been some time since I message you, it doesn't I forgot you. I think of you every day, every minite of every day, how can I not your where and still are my life. I still and always need you, I love you. I know you watch over me all the time. I had a strange dream about you and Kevin the other nite, the two of you were together, but I don't know where the both of you were, it had something to do with clothes. Don't ask me why clothes, the two of you were wearing suites and they didn't fit that good, a little to small for some reason. I'm sure the dream meant something and since I had the dream I'm trying to figure it out. I will always love you, I will never stop thinking of you ever. You will always be in my hear for ever, nothing will ever change that. All my love forever. Donna”

January 31, 2019

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“It's been so long since I have written to you, but you have never left my thoughts. I think of you from the time I wake up to the time I go to sleep and every second in between. I know that you know the Courtney is going to have a baby in June, I know it's a girl. Courtney as you know got married june 23 and she is due in June, I just know that is the same day that she wil have the baby. You were watching over us on that day, there was a reason other then Courtney getting married, it's her due date, the baby girl is your granddaughter. I want you home so that we can enjoy that very special day together. I love you so very much and always will, love you your wife Donna”

November 19, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Today I relite your candle, in memory of my loving husband Butch. As long as I'm alive I will relight this candle for you. I will never forget.”

October 8, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart it's almost been 11 months, time is moving so fast. I still have major melt downs, I had one last nite. It's going on one year next month and I don't know how to handle it. I'm sure my melt down is going to be more them just major, one year I can't believe it, lease take me home with you, please. I know you know of everything that is going on in my life and the life of the kids, I miss the kids so much, I wigh we were close but we are so far apart emotionally. We need you to help us. I love you with all my heart my love. Donna Green ly”

September 12, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I am having a very hard time It's not getting any better, I still want you to come home. Today is 10 months since you left, almost a year Butch, it seems like yesterday, that's how much i'm still in pain.Thank you for watching over me last Saturday I really need your help and you came thru for me, I'll always love you I hope you will never forget that. Hey I gave Baby some shrimp tonite, you know how she acts when she can't wait, she was climbing the counter top to get at it, we always laughed at her when she did that. Oh the pain is just to much. I sleep with your picture face down on my heart, right on my left , I know you love that. Your smile is so beautiful. Please help me with the pain Butch it's killing me. I love you so much my sweetheart. Donna”

August 21, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I made sure your bdge was on the headstone, I knew you would like that”

August 21, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Butch I keep trying to post some pictures and the site won't let me. I want you to see Courtneys wedding and the headstone, both are beautiful. It's upside down sorry.”

August 8, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I miss you so much, I love you so much, please come get me. I'm scared, the house hasn't sold, and I'm afraid to move, I don't know how to do it by myself, I need you, help me. My lifeis worth nothing without you. I don't know why but the clock on the mantelwon't keep time is that you. I can't move forward, I just keep moving backward, I can't move on without you. Do you miss me. I love you more then you will ever know. Love you Donna”

August 4, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Happy Birthday sweetheart. I can't believe your 69 years old. Time went way to fast for you and me, we didn't have enought time together. Every holiday and every birthday that goes by is so painfull. I am going to get you a cake today, I wish I could share it with you. It;s pouring outside right now but I am still going to go see you. The rain is like my tears falling, I wish it was sunny out right now so that I know you are happy, everyday is hard. I need you to be happy, that's the only way I know that I can bear this pain of lossing you. You deserved so many more birthdays here at home with your family, we love you so much. You will always be in my heart forever, I will always love you. Donna”

July 21, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, I miss you so very much. I can't stop thinking of you which always makes me cry. I take 1 step forward and then take 10 steps back. I just can't move or do anything without you. I have been trying to post your headstone but this site won't take the picture, don't know why. The house isn't selling, if it doesn't sell by this year I have some thoughts in mind on what I am going to do. The only roommates I am getting are males and that's not what I want, I need a female. I'm going to vist you today. I'm sorry it's been so long, the weather has been so hot, I'v been so busy around the house and to top it off as you know what is going on with Courtney is horriable. The stress of Courtney has made me so sick that I couln'd get out of bed.I need you to help me sweetheart. I'm so tired, I can't fight any more, I give up on everything right now. I need to take care of myself, I need to consentrate on me first right now, I need to get well and think about happy thoughts of you, you and I come first. Please don't ever leave me, you are my life. I will be with you as soon as I can I promise. My home is with you. I will always love you Donna”

July 12, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, I ordered the headstone for us. It's so nice, I paid more then I could afford but that's ok because you're worth it. I designed it myself. Hepworth is going to use it on their web site. I did the gray grainte, the name Green is in the middle with 2 angels looking down on our name. The first angel is for you my angel and the second one is for me when I die. Like I said I went well over my budget but it's for both of us. I also gave them your police badge and the are going to add it to the stone by your name. I did all of this because you are worth all of this and more. I just need to add the picture to my computer and I will post it for you ok. I love you with all my heart. Donna”

July 6, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I love you and miss you and I always will. Donna Green”

June 22, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Thank you for today, your daughter is getting married. You gave me and Courtney the greatest gift. Showing yourself above us is a memory I will have for ever, thank you I needed that so very much, you made it possible for me to have the peace that I need to get thru the happyest day for Courtney and for you and me. You will always remember this day of joy and sharing it with your family the only way that you know how. I know how much you wanted to be physically present but your spiritual present has been felt by us, thank you. We love and miss you so much today and always will forever. I love you so very much, Donna”

June 19, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, our Mexico trip is here, I need you to go with me, please. I can't do this alone, please help me. I'm happy for Courtney, I'm sad for me. You are always on my mind, can you hear me thinking and talking to you, if you can you know I want to go come with you. I'm sorry but I don't want to live here without you. I'm so very tired, I'm ready. I love you always my love. Donna”

June 15, 2018

Donna green wrote a sympathy message

“I know our anniversery was yesterday, It was a very bad day for me. I cried and cried because I don't have you to share it with you.I had a very hard time getting up today, got up at 1 in the after noon. I'm not taking this well, I just want to die with you. I love you so very much. Donna”

June 5, 2018

douglas green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, I know it's been awhile since I left you a message. It's not because I haven't thought about you because I think of you every day. I talk to you every day, I cry every day. I know you can't come home to me but, I can always come to you and that's just what I want the most. I want to be with you, I can't live without you, I don't want to be without you. I still hate the nights, it gets dark and I am lonley without you. I can still see you walk the floor in the house every night. I look up and my eyes follow you going from the living room, down the hall to the bedrooms. I really can see you. I hate going to bed at night because your not here, I call out to you because I need you, I need your help and your not here. No matter how sick you felt if I needed you you aways came to help me, I need you now, please come for me now, im ready to meet you and go anywhere with you. My life is not worth anything with out you. I know you can hear me thinking about you and talking to you,please answer me. Im trying to live a life without you, It's not working. How can it, being with you for 34 years is half my life time. I would never wanted you to go thru this kind of pain, it;s to much for me to bear so Can't imagine the hurt you would feel. Thinking of that brings me more pain. As you know the trip to Mexico is come up so fast, this trip wasn't just for Courtney but, it was a new beining for us. I need you with me, I will be lost without you there. I'll be alone on such a happy day. Who do I dance with, you love to dance. Why is it that the happy's day for both of us will be my sad's day. Every day is sad for me but, well you have been waiting for this day all your life and it's happening without you being there, but you know what I will be wear in in my heart. I plan on having your picture attached to my heart under my dress so you willbe with us. I will alsways love you to the moon and back. Donna”

May 27, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“My mood has been so bad, I'm so down on myself. My life is falling apart because your not here with me. I yell at myself, I put myself down, I don't deserve to live without you. I'm tired, I'm fustrated, I can't do this any more, please come and get me. I don't want to go to Mexico. I can't go with out you. It would have been our first vacation for us both, a chance to get it right between the two of us, that's what I wanted and still do. Please,please, please come for me now, I need to be with you, I,m not afaird, I'm afraird of not being with you. I love you so very much. Donna”

May 14, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, if your trying to kill me your doing a good job. I can't keep doing everything that needs to be done to sell the house. It's beating me up. I have never been so sore, every bone in my bondy hurts, it's sreaming at me to stop but I can't. I miss you so very much, I love you so very much. If your trying to kill me do it now, I don't know how much more I can take. I want to be with you, so please take me now, I'm ready. We will live happily after just you and me. Love you forever Donna”

April 28, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, it's been awhile since we talked. I have been so very busy, my hands hurt so much. I have been lugging bricks, need to sell them.It's still so very hard not having you here, please come home to me. I need to touch you, to hold you, to hug you. My life will never be the same without you. I still love you so very much. Love you Donna”

March 28, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweatheart, not in a very good mood today. I don't know, I feel really off. Maybe because their is still so much I have to do and such little time left. Trying to find out the value of things and it's fusrtating. Yesterday went to lunch with Cathy and I took the BMW. I'll tell you it felt great. I don't listen to music in the car because I cry, always remind me of you but yesterday I turned it on and I drove the car just like you and it made me feel so good that I smiled and I didn't want to come home I just wanted to keep driving. I now know why that car made you so happy. I'm thinking twice about selling it, I love the car just as much as you do. I know I need to sell because I very much need the money, if you could just help me get money from somewhere esle I promise I'll keep the car. The car makes me happy, I feel you in that car, the BMW is all about you and the pleasure it gave you. Please help me keep it. I love you my love. Donna”

March 23, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweatheart, having a hard time right now, I can't stop crying. I love you so much, please come and get me so that I can be with you forever. Love you Donna”

March 21, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweatheart, I went out today and Baby doesn't like it when I go out. She comes right over to me and wants my attention, I think she is scared I might not come back. I bought her a new bed and she loves it. She still won't sleep in the bed with me, I try to get her to but she won't. I went to the senior center to play bingo and guess who I sat with, Barbra Newmen, that's right, small world. When are you coming to come get me, I'm readyto go, being with you is all that matters to me. There is nothing here for me. I need peace, I need to rest, I need you. Please hurry and come for me. The snow never stops, I am so cold, I don't dere turn up the heat, I can't afford the oil, it's cold in the house rigt now. I know I'm doing things you would never approve of but I don't have a choice, I know that's no excuse, I just don't now what to do. If you would please come get me it will stop. I try to sleep late in the morning because I hate getting up and not seeing you, but I can't sleep. Baby lets me sleep she doesn't bother me like she did to you, I know she feels my pain. I need to move and I know I am going to take a loss, I can't do everything. I need help. Please send me some help. I need you so much. I love you so much. Donna”

March 15, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, you would be so proud of me today, the batterie in your car was dead and I started it, can you believe it. I did it. I didn't even freak out about it. Maybe I will be able to handle somethings, but I can never handle lossing you. Every day I cry, I want you to come home please. November 12th is one hell of day, do you realize I went to arubua on Novemeber 12 2011. Why is that date always coming up, it's trying to tell me something. I love you my love, Donna”

March 9, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“I love you sweetheart, I miss you. I have been having a very hard time without you. Trying to get the house ready for sale is almost impossible, don't think I can do it. I need you. Please come home. Love and miss you always. Donna”

March 1, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, it's been awhile. I don't think I will be selling the house this year, to much needs to be done for anyone to get financing. I love you. Tell me something Butch, did you know that you were going to die that night. Did you just have a feeling something wasn't right. Why didn't you say something to me, why didn't you let me say good bye. I would have told you how much I love you, I would have held you thru the night. I need to feel your arms around me, I need to hear you say I love you. I need to see your face and hear your voice, please talk to me. All I do is cry, I will never stop crying. You had that feeling didn't you, you wanted to spear me I know that now. I could have saved you. How do I live with this guilt. I will always need you, please ome home. Love you always Donna”

February 19, 2018

Donna Williams Green wrote a sympathy message

“Butch why did you leave me. It's to hard without you, if you can't come home then please take me with you. After 34 years everything will remind me of you, I can't move on. Please come and get me. I even miss going food shopping with you, I can't go by myself, I need you. You decide to leave but you forgot to take me with you, why. I don't know what to do with the house. I don't think I can sell it for many reasons, 1. I can't leave you behind. 2.there is to much for me to get it ready for sale. 3. Baby doesn't want to leave, for the first time she is sleeping in the master bedroom. 4. I hate selling your things and I know I can't take everything with me. I have more reasons not to sell, but the biggest one is that I want to be with you and this is the closes I can be with you, unless you come and get me so I can be with you,please take me with you please. I love you so very much Donna, Please come for me very, very soon, I am waiting for you.”

February 14, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Happy Valentines Day sweetheart. I wish you where here, I need you today. I would make you a very special dinner if you come home. Love you still so much. I found newspaper clippings about you that you saved, I have read them before, but their is one that I never knew you had. It's about the town retiring you and guess what, I was shocked what I found. On Monday the 12th, I read that the town retired you on November the 12th. I was blown away, you died on November the 12th and on top of that I read it on the 12th. This is way to much for me to handle, I couldn't believe it. There is a meaning to all of this and you have your hand all over it. It's a sign from you, a very good sign. I will figure it out and when I do I know I will know the meaning of it. I think I am going to start playing the number 12, maybe 11-12 would be better. God I can't believe it. I think maybe it could mean you for give me, I hope it does. I am going to see if I can find any more things that happened on november 12 with you or maybe thinks that happened to the both of us together, I know there is more and I will find it. Thank you for the signs you have been sending me, it could only be you. I know you are here beside me and all you want to do is protect me from any worries that I have, which is so many. I feel you every day, I see your face in every thing I do. Your my love sweetheart and always will be. Love You Always Donna”

January 24, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“I love you. I can't listen to music it makes me cry thinking of you.I want you back. Please, please come home. I thought that I never wanted to die but with you gone it's ok, I am not afraid of dying because I will be with you, that's all I want. Butch how do I move on without you, everyday it gets worse. Please help me. Please forgive me for everything. I didn't mean any of it, I love you. The master bedroom and bath is finished and I am going to start sleeping in there so I can be closer to you. I need to feel your hugs, your arms around me. I need to hear your voice, hear you talking to me. Help me please. I need you. I love you, Donna”

January 20, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, one wall and a very small section of the ceiling left. Last night I finally had a good night sleep, slept thru the night. Money is very tight right now but I think I might be ok. I love looking at your picture, I talk to it all the time. You are the only one for me. I might have to do something I don't want to do but I don't think I have a choice, I hope you understand, I need you to understand. I know you know what it is, please don't be mad at me I need to sevive. If you were still here I wouldn't have to take such drastic measures, help me thru this only choice I have. I love you Honey. Donna”

January 13, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetie, it's been awhile but I am so sick again. Ever since you died I have been sick, I feel better for a couple of days and then I get hit again for weeks, it's this damn cold. I finished the master bathroom, all painted. Starting on the bedroom hopefully tomorrow if I feel better. Do you want a good laugh. The other day I saw a mouse on the rug, I thought it might be fake, one of babies toys. I always thought a mouse was gray well this one was brown and white, so it must have been a toy, right. I picked it up by the fake tail and it slipped out of my hand and I realized it is real, I screamed, my god it's real. Boy I really needed you then. I had no choice I had to pick it up with a napkin. Who would have thought I could ever do that, not me, not you. I don't know where baby got this mouse but she wanted to show me her prize. Funny cat. You would had a great laugh over this. I had a major melt down the other night, thinking of you and how much I love you and miss you, having a hard time sleeping. I need to lay down beside you, I need to hold on to you tight. When I'm this sick I need you here to help me. You have always taken good care of me when I am this sick, I don't like being alone, I need you and only you. Baby is sitting in front of me and just looking at me, she misses you. I love you sweetie. Donna”

January 9, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“I have reading up on the stages of death sweetheart, I wanted so much to save you. It hurts so much knowing maybe I could have, if I just have known. You were fine the night before, you were normal. What happened after that I don't know and I will never know, I can't forgive myself for not checking much earlier but I had no reason to. The guilt is going to kill me, I have so many unanswered questions why and when, could I have done something sooner. I love you so much. I can't stop crying, I need you so much please come back to me, I can't heal with you gone. I need you to know I am so very sorry, if I had only knew. I stare at your picture that's on my phone and on my computer, god I love looking at you. All my love always Donna.”

January 6, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, I'm having a hard time today, I'm crying for you. I want to see you and hear your voice so much. The hurt will never go away, I need you.”

January 2, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Butch I am so alone, friends what friends. No one has called to see if I am ok, no one has called to ask me if I need help with anything. I am just going to go to bed and cry, I'm so alone dealing with so much. Please help me sweetheart, give me the strength to handle everything b myself. You have given me some very good signs and I want you to know I recieved them and I will do the right things, thank you. I still need more help from you, please help me. I love you, Donna”

January 1, 2018

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“I love you. I miss you. I want you to come home. This is a new year and I can't share it with you. We have been together for so very long, I don't know how to ring in the new year without you. Baby and I had our custom shimp, wish you where here to share it with us. Baby snuggled under the covers with me last nite and she slept that way with me, she must have sense that I needed you. My first year without you. I will try and make the most of it, it's going to be so hard. I need you, please help me through this time of needing you. I Love You Donna”

December 31, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetie, I had to sell your hunting stuff, hated to do it but I have no choice. I found your black leather police jacket, I need to sell it but a part of me hopes it doesn't sell, it's a part of who you are. Selling all your clothes, the clothes that I picked out for you, you know all the good items. I need the money, I know you would understand, hate doing this. I kept some of your clothes for myself to wear around the house and to sleep in, makes me feel closer to you. Love you sweetheart Donna”

December 30, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, Had the hot water tank installed today, I never knew how good it felt to take a hot bath. I made fish for dinner and it came out horriable, not use to cooking any more. Everything I make comes out bad you would think I am a bad cook, but you know better. Things are getting better I think. Your picture is on the wall of my computer and I stare at it all the time. You really are a very good looking man and very sexy, love looking at you. I still want you to come home, I will always want you here with me. Please contact me, tell me how much you still love me. I love you sweetie. Donna”

December 25, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart. Went to courtneys for Xmas Eve, the kids had a great time and loved the gifts we gave them. Excellent roast, for you a bit over done. It was a hard day for me, I just wanted to sleep. Today is Xmas day, all I did was sleep today. I don't feel good, I am still sick I just wish I could feel better, maybe it is because of you, I miss you and that stress me out big time. Our first Xmas without you, this wasn't suppose to happen. You should have had many, any more years ahead of you. Merry Xmas my love Donna”

December 23, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Tomorrow is Xmas Eve and going to Courtney's. I need you with me tomorrow, I don't want to spend Xmas without you. Please help me get thru the day without you, I am trying and nothing s or will help me, only you can do it. Help me please help me. I need you. I don't know how to do this. I don't want to drive to Courtney's by myself, you always do the driving, I will be so lonely. I love you so much. My wish for you this Xmas is that you find peace and you are kept warm with the love of the angles. Please wish my Dad a Merry Xmas and please keep him safe with you. I love you both so much, I am trying not to hurt and it's not working. Love you forever, Donna”

December 21, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“hI SWEETHEART, BABY NOW SLEEPS WITH ME. i MADE COOKIES ALL DAY, YOUR FAVOITE. yOU WOULD LOVE ME SO MUCH, i AM ALWAYS COLD i NEED TO TURN THE HEAT UP, FIGURES YOU ARE GONE AND NOW i'M COLD. gOING SHOPPING WITH cOURTNEY TOMORROW, WE ARE FOR NOW GETTING ALONG REALLY GOOD. i DON'T FEEL VERY GOOD, I'M SICK. i AM SO TIRED LATLEY. i'LL LET YOU KNOW WHEN THE NEW HOT WATER TANK GOES IN, i CAN'T WAIT TO TAKE A HOT BATH. i'M GOING TO BED VERY EARLY TONITE, HOPE i'M FEELING BETTER TOMORROW. i MADE COOKIES FOR MY UNCLE DON, HOPE HE LIKES THEM. mAKING THE ROAST AT COURTNEY'S THIS YEAR. YOU ALWAYS DO THE ROAST, I HOPE IT COMES OUT AS THE WAY YOU MAKE IT, I KNOW ROAST BEEF IS YOUR FAVOITE. i LOVE YOU SWEETIE. DONNA”

December 20, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, Baby is being a brat, she just wants to eat her treats. She came up on my bed a couple of nites ago, I would take it that she is feeling better, she still misses you. She is depending on me more and more now,it makes me happy. The hot water tank is bustered, we need a new one. The cost is $2,700, I have no choice tired of taking cold showers. I would have more money if you were still here, but I will bite the bullet and take the money out of the bank. I want you to know that I am not so afraid of the dark as much. The nites are still hard but I am dealing with it better. Xmas is in a few days and I need you here, so hard being without you. Xmas at Courtneys again this year and I want you to be there with me. I am still lost without you. I love you, Donna”

December 16, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, I took Uncle Don to the doctors today and then we ordered pizza and went back to his house to eat, it was a good day for me. Baby is now spending more time on your side of the bed. She now comes to e to get feed everyday, she must be feeling better, she is still missig you. I finished up my Xmass shopping today, I am done. I am going to put one more coat of paint on the tub and then it will be done. I know that it is silly of me to keep writing to you almost every night but it helps me get thru the hardship of missing you. I need the connection with you. I love you Donna”

December 15, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“My day went well today, so far I hadnt cried once. Baby is sleeping on your bed, this is the first time since you died. You know if baby can sleep in your side of the bed, I think I might be ready to take over the master bedroom. Not tonite but maybe soon. I am still talking to you every day, I have a lot to tell you and yes I still yell at you for dying. I hope your'e not cold, it's freezing outside right now, please stay warm. I am still trying to orginzie the house, making it easier for me to keep clean. I still need you to come back, I know you can't so can you send me a sign so that I know you are still here with me. I still love you sweetheart. Donna”

December 14, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, missed talking to you yesterday. Painted the bath tub yesterday and I has cursing you because I needed your help. Baby finally came into my room to wake me up for her breakfast, she knows you arn't coming home ever again, my heart breaks for her. I still miss you so much, I know I always will. Having a real hard time falling asleep, I need you in the same room or in the other room so I can fall asleep. Your'e not going to believe this but I had to turn the heat up, I am always cold, funny. It's almost Christmas and you need to be here, I am still going to buy you a gift, going to wrap it and save it for you. I don't want Christmas without you. Please be with me on Christmas. I love you Donna”

December 9, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Lately I haven't been able to stick to my normal routine, it's getting worse not better, can't stop thinking about you and how much I miss you. It's snowing out, the first snow of the season and your'e not here to see it with me. If youwere here I would be making home made soup for us, a good hearty winter, snow dinner. I know how much you enjoy my soup. I can't listen to music because it makes me cry, thinking of you so much. I did go up into the attic and I did more cleaning up there, found your high school picture, I am going to reframe it for you. Butch do me a favor, when you come home will you please bring my Dad with you, I need him to, I need the both of you. I love you both so much and I feel the guilt I have for the both of you. Please ask my Dad to contact me so he can tell me not to worry about the two of you, that the two of you forgive me. I love you and miss you so much. Love you always Donna”

December 8, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, miss you. Today I did some more cleaning in the garage. I hated to get rid of your things, they ment so much to you but I did talk to you as I did it. The guy Keith came by today to ask if we still wanted him to do the plowing, I said yes and he mention you and I started to cry, I told him what happened and he was great about his price for the driveway. I am having a hard time today, I can't stop thinking about you without crying, I need you. Had dinner with my uncle Don last nite, I made pork chops and brought the dinner to his house. I enjoyed myself last night It helped me so much, I didn't cry last nite but I had a very hard time falling to sleep. I unplugged the fridge down stairs to save on electicity every penny counts. If I could have one wish I would wish you were here with me. I love you Butch.”

December 3, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetie, missing so much every day. It's dark out, I hate the dark, I need you here with me. Cleaned more of the garage today, did laundry and cleaned the house which didn,t really need it. I want you to come home, I need you to come home I love you. The boiler is still leaking, the pressure is still to high, I know I will have to replace it before I sell the house. You know what, I really don't want to sell the house any more because this is where we raised our family, this is where we began. You are a big part of this house, you did all the work, you fixed this house up for me and it is going to be so hard to give this house up. When it sells I don't want to leave you behind, so please follow me where ever I go. Love You Donna”

December 2, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetie, I cleaned out more of the attic, finding all kinds of things up there, things we forgot about. Did you know you have 3 fish finders, I found them. I kept myself busy all day so it wasn't to bad a day, but it is dark out and you know how I feel about that. I don't want to break down like yesterday, that was a horrible day for me. I know when I go to bed my thoughts are going to be of you and I will cry, trying so hard not to, it doesn't work. I can't sleep, I need a good nite sleep can you help me. Love You Donna”

November 30, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“Hi sweetheart, hope you are warm enough. Baby sits at the door of your bedroom and she won't go in, she knows your not coming home. I am taking great care of her just like you did. Baby climbs up on the couch beside me and snuggles,she never did that before, she misses you so much, and so do I. Yesterday I was ok, today I kept busy, went into the attic to get more stuff. Yes I took out the trash and recyling barrles. Today was also ok but it's dark out and I am lonely for you, wish you could send me a sign saying everything is going to work out, I need it. I really, really miss you so much, please send me something. Love you sweetie”

November 27, 2017

Donna Williams wrote a sympathy message

“another day over and it,s dark again, I hate the dark, i'm scared of it. Today was a hard day again, every day I cry for you to help me. I don't want to be alone, I don't want to figure everything out by myself. I am so very tired, I need to sleep until this night mare is over. I don't have anyone to share all of this with, no one to help with all the running around, it's lonely. What do I do, my car registion, car inspected and getting a new lic. ,where are you. I hate doing this to you, telling you about how much I am in pain and everything that is going wrong because I know it's hard for you to rest in peace. I'm trying, I really am. I hate bothering but, I know there will be a time when all of this complaining will stop and you will rest in peace. Right now I just don't know when that some day will be, so please bear with me and listen to me, and most of all help me, please. I need and want someone to care. You were the only one who loved me enough to put up with me, I am so very sorry, can you ever forgive me. I didn't mean all the things I said. You are a great man. Any woman would be proud to have you as their husband. I have so many regrets, so many that the guilt is killing me. I want to be whole again, please help me get there. I love you Donna”